Practice safe friends

I know I have blogged about friendship before but this one is not so the i love my friends blah blah blah blog.

Actually my friends suck. Not all of them just a few.

But the ones that suck really do indeed suck. I do have some amazing friends but I have already figured out how fake some of them are since I've been married which has only been twenty three day but man are they dropping like flies.

A real friend is someone who is there for you no matter what. They are there for the worst times of your life & they are there for the best times in your life. They don't judge you & they are always by your side. They don't just change over night. Or maybe you think they change over night but really they just slip up & show you who they really are.

I don't think I expect much as a friend either is the thing. I mean is it really that hard?? Especially after all I have done for these certain people. Maybe i'm in the wrong. It's my fault for always being so loving & helpful when I should have just been fake like everyone else. But why wait till I'm married to show your true colors to me?? Couldn't you have saved me all the time & effort of me being a good friend when you were obviously done being one to me when obviously all along you didn't care.

Okay okay that is my pitty me venting for the day just had to get it off my chest.

But here is the upside I do have some amazing friends that have been there for me through good times & the bad times. Till death to us part. Nah there's no way that even death will break us up:) Glad I am really finding who my real friends are.


Don't be fake. People don't like fake people. Unless you are fake. Do other fake people like other fake people???? Hmmmm

Hahahahaha well that is all.

watch me grow

My have i grown!!! These are a few of the pictures i put in my wedding video i think they are so fun!!! One of the funnest things i think you can do is look through old photo albums & home videos & see how everyone has grown. I can't wait till i have babies but i will wait at least a few years:]

new found obsession.

oh braids i love you so much.

I wish i could do these on myself.

maybe once my hair grows

:]

averie elizabeth

All this wedding stuff have totally controlled my life for the last three months which has kept me from blogging about my beautiful niece:]


Averie Elizabeth Wall

was born on June 12th 2012

at 8:52 p.m.  7 lbs & 4 oz

19 1/2 inches long:]

She is the most beautiful baby in the whole world.

I seriously did not know i could love her this much.

I don't know if it's just because i am related to her but she is the most perfect baby i have ever seen in my life!! I may be a little biased:]

All  i want to do seriously hold her & kiss her all day!! She is growing up so fast & i am such a proud auntie. My heart & my wallet have surely taken at hit since she was born:]  

But it's so worth it. She is the most beautiful angel.

She is not getting where she starts goo-ing & laughing & smiling ahhhh it's to die for. I can't wait to watch her grow her whole life.

She is the most beautiful baby ever!!

 Seeing how much she has grown since she was born is so much fun. She makes me baby hungry until she is crying. haha I think i will be able to hold out & just live vicariously through her while handing her back off to mommy & daddy when she is uncontrollably crying haha:] oh my sweet niece i love you so much. :] I am going to spoil you rotten:]

love your favorite auntie

the beginning:]

I know i have been lacking on my blogging duty but give me a break i have been a little busy. :] As many of you know i married the love of my life chance bird 17 days ago, it was such an amazing day. The week before i was consumed with wedding plans & trying to get used to this extra layer of clothing i now had to wear:] I just wanted to fast forward to the day when i got to marry him. The morning of, my good friend melissa came early to do my hair. She kept commenting on how calm i was & how it was so weird & not like any bride she she has been with. That just made me smile because i really was so calm. I knew that no matter what this day would be perfect. I had waited all my life for this day & i wasn't going to spend it stressing about nothing. So all i did was just breathe:] I was more excited than nervous until we pulled into the Manti Temple parking lot. By then the butterflies in my stomach were at full force. i was getting married. I was getting MARRIED. holy shiiii.... That's what was going on in my head but to everyone besides my mother would have never thought i was nervous at all. I was beaming apparently.

As Chance & I were taken into a room i didn't want to look at him or even old his hand for fear i would burst out in tears of joy so i decided to study the beauty of the temple walls. So detailed & just gorgeous. I was so wrapped up in trying to keep my nerves down i was caught off guard when it was our turn to go. AH. no turning back now:] We sat in the sealing room & our sweet sealer chatted with us for a few minutes. Then everyone started to fill in & that's when i had the most amazing experience. My grandpa shepherd passed away almost four years ago & one of the things i was looking forward to the most was going to the temple & feeling him there. I had just noticed i forgot to bring his hanky with me & was disappointed. Then a thought entered my mind. "I sure hope he is here." Then without warning it just came over me. I felt like i was sitting on his lap. I could feel him from my head to my toes & i just started bawling uncontrollably. That accompanied by the overwhelming feeling of love & support from our family entering the room was just an incredible feeling that i will never forget. That went on for about 15 minutes & then i thought grandpa stop making me cry so much & then i was able to compose my self & listen to what the sealer was telling us. Words can't describe how amazing it felt to have him there. I have missed him so much, it was a sweet reminder that we will be with loved ones again after e pass through this life. Certainly an experience i won't soon forget!!! :]:]:]:]

I had a special tie to Manti. My parents & Grandparents were married there so the feeling there was special all day. The temple was beautiful, all the temple workers were so nice & so sweet i felt like a princess!!! I am married this is my day to be a princess. Did you hear that???? I AM MARRIED. & to be honest i didn't feel any different. haha. It hits me later but still shocks me to this day. Anyways where was i. Oh i was MARRIED:] Now it was time to get in that gorgeous dress i had dreamed about & drooled over when i finally found it!!! Me & Chance together in public in front of our friends & family it was such an amazing experience!!

We walked out & kissed for a picture & then of course i ran & hugged my friends first before anyone. Haha Mckell, Maddi, & Paige are more like family. They are my sisters. They were the first people i wanted to hug. So i did:] Then came lots of hugs & kisses from our families. Then we battled the Manti crowds to try & take pictures..... The Salt Lake Temple & Provo Temples were closed. So they had a very busy day 12 sealings & i was one of them. We had at least four brides in the bridal room. Lots of strangers saw me in the G's that day haha..... We ended up on the hill not the stairs which i know are going to be beautiful & unique since my photographer captured the temple in the background!! I can't wait to see them with all my friends & family!!

The rest of the day is almost a complete blur. That's how fast it went by i mean. Luncheon then the reception. My backyard looked amazing. The lights streamed across the back from our trees. All the planning & stress had finally paid off. Everything was more that i could have hoped for. We had a non stop line of people who came to see us i was completely overwhelmed. We had a five minute break to cut our cake & then itwas back to the line. I am so thankful to everyone who either attended the temple or the reception to show your love & support for me & my husband!! It was an amazing way start to our future together & i wouldn't have wished it to be any other way. I finally around 10 p.m. got to sit down & eat some of my soft serve ice cream we had. My feet were killing me & at about that time i was so glad i wore my cute vans & not high heels. (High five for that one) I danced around with my little brother Austin & then realized I wasn't completely packed. So with some help i got out of my dress helped clean up a bit, finished packing & then headed up to Park City to stay in our Presidential Suite at the Park City Hotel. Then went to Vegas & finished it off with mesquite!! It was the perfect trip. We came home & started moving into our home & that's when it finally hit me. I am married:] I still when people ask my name at the store or anywhere else i have to second think it. Brittney wa....Bird. Brittney Bird. Wow you are special. You don't even know your own name. Your name is repeat after me B-R-I-T-T-N-E-Y bird. B-I-R-D!!! You are now a bird. I hope i am not the only one who has problems going by their new last name.

So it is safe to say that I LOVE BEING MARRIED. It is seriously the best thing ever. Waking up to my husband is the greatest feeling ever. I am sure life will not always be so perfect as it is right now but all i will need to do is look at the glow i had on my wedding day & know i did the right thing, chose the right person, started the perfect life together. Again i would like to thank all of you who came to support us. I love you all & you will never know how much it truly meant to us both. Life is so good. It took a lot to get here but i wouldn't trade it for anything:]

Love, Mr. & Mrs. Bird :]

engaged:)

Before i tell my wonderful engagement story let's start with a little back history on me & chance for those of you who don't know. We met my junior year in high school. I was his supervisor at a mapleton city basketball tournament. Him & my little brother were keeping score. He was really tall, & he was bald. (he had just shaved his head along with all the baseball team for their first game) I had no idea who this Chance Bird fellow was but later learned we had been in a few same classes in jr. high. I had absolutely no idea he even knew who i was. But he did:] I had three games with him that day & the next day he wasn't scheduled to work so i figurativly speaking "grew a pair" & got his number off of my subsitution sheet & texted him. What did that text say? "You should bring me some cinna stix :]" Neither of us knew what that one little text would lead to. Over the next few weeks we had a few games together then he started baseball & he was done. But this is how sweet he is. One Saturday I had about six hours of tournament games & he came on that Saturday just so he could work with me. Then it was my birthday & i was working so after basketball practice he brought me a dr. pepper & sat with me through all my games i was supervising. I went home that night & told my mom that i had found the boy i want to take me to prom. haha :]

We'll he did eventually. After he won me over on our first date. HE ACTUALLY TOOK ME ON A DATE. I was blown away that he would want to take me out & spend money on me rather that just "hang out" at his house unlike every other boy i've ever met in my life. When he picked me up he went to my door to get me. Didn't just text me that he was here. Then to my surprise he opened my doors for me all night long. Now that may not be a big deal to you but that blew me away. I honestly had never had someone do that for me. On that first date i was hooked. That tall, blue eyed, blonde haired boy had my undivided attention. Then three days later i kissed him on my porch.:] As hard as i fought not to fall i fell......fast. He broke down every wall i ever put up & he actually fought for me. He was unlike any other boy i had dated.

The next two years flew by & i was facing one of the hardest things in life. Letting him go. But i did. He went on his mission to Lansing Michigan & i was left here waiting. It was hard to let it go but the blessings that i have seen in my life since he went are countless. I had two years of growth & so did he. But in all the time & all those miles apart i never fell out of love for him. Some how everything worked out the way it was supposed to. So all the worry &stress & the tears were all worth it. He came home to me & i loved it. I was so scared when he came back that he & i were going to be compltelely different people & become complete strangers to each other. But after taking some time to figure us out the answer was clear & we were together & i didn't ever want to be without him. so now to the goods!!!!! We obviously have talked about marriage for a while now but when it got down to it every aspect of marriage scared me. It's a big decision so i had to make sure it was the right thing to do. To be married to someone for all time & eternity is a big deal. As much as fought to find a reason why we wouldnt work it was struck down by complete faith that he was who i was meant to be with. So we started making small steps to that huge day. We had four years of trials, faith, growth, & love. We spent two years together & two years apart. I knew we could handle everything & anything.

ENGAGED.

May eleventh two thousand & twleve

I had been up to salt lake & thanksgiving point all day long helping my cousin danielle & nick with thier engagements/bridals/groomals. I was up at 7 am to do her hair & then we headed up. It was a long day. But chances mission companion also was having his wedding reception in eagle moutian that night so Chance picked me up at thanksgiving point around seven that night. We went to the reception & then he took me to dinner at olive garden ( my favorite place) Then we just headed home. I had to use the bathroom so badly so it was driving me crazy that he was driving so freaking slow. Ten under the speed limit at times i was gonna jump out of my skin. After taking the longest way possible to get to my house we finally got to my house & i went to the bathroom. I walked out & saw my dirty kitchen. My parents were out of town & being gone the house had only pilled on the dishes since i had left that morning. So i started cleaning. Chances aunt Stacey called & asked him if he would go to the Memorial Hall because someone had left the lights on. So he said of course he could go do that for her. He asked me to come with him. I was so tired & so fixated on how messy the house was i told him i was not going. After fighting about it for like five minutes he would not let up so i grabbed my phone and walked to the car. I did not say one word to him on the ride over. But i thought as we left my drive way would he be asking me?? Is that why he would not let me stay but there was no way. He didnt have my ring it wasn't sized yet. So i thought nothing of it. As soon as we pulled up i looked over at him & asked if i really had to come in with him. He smiled & said yes. As we walked to the the front i noticed a balloon from the window & thought something was clearly up. We walk in & i saw a table set up with flowers, balloons, candles, & cinna stix all where we had first met:] I turned around & there he was on one knee with my ring & he asked me if i would marry him. He stood up & i was like a deer in head lights. I could not believe what was happening. The only words i could muster up were "I hate you!!! I hate surprises!!!" Then i lightly punched him & then jumped into his arms!!! I didn't say yes for like five minutes. Then i quickly pulled away & asked, "did you ask my dad?? If not then i can't!!! hahaha" He had told me that when i was in payson dog sitting for my friends family while they were on vacation he had gotten my ring from my parents & gotten it sized after asking my dad of course like a good man should:) I always thought i would cry when this happened but i didn't know what i felt. I wanted to scream & run around in circles. I'd hug him & then freak out. I instanly felt like i had a fever i was so flushed!! I didn't even take a picture of us or what he had done i just grabbed my flowers & told him i was sick that we should leave:) haha oh man. I wish someone could have recorded that. I called mckell as soon as i got back into the car where my phone was & drove straight to payson to go see her. Im still in shocked that it happened. I can't stop looking at this ring on my finger. It's gorgeous!!! I seriously am the luckiest girl in the world to have that handsome 6'3 tall, blonde, blue eyed boy to call my fiance:) I haven't stopped smiling since friday & i dont think that is going to stop anytime soon!! August fourth can't come soon enough i can't wait until he takes me to the Manti Temple & i am sealed with him for all time & eternity. Sometimes life turns into the fairytale we always dreamed would happen. Mine started four years ago but i just hadn't noticed it till just now. :]

So now if you see me with a big smile on my face & a sparkle on my finger you now all know why. I am marrying the love of my life in a few months from now. :]:]:] i know a lot of people have said it before & i have said it before & i will say it again

I AM THE LUCKIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD:]

august 4th can't come quick enough.

In love:)

My life lately has been wonderful, I just got back from spending a week in mesquite with my family, I have a lot of concerts & adventures planned for this summer, & I've also got a hot date everyday:) For those of you who were wondering yes me & chance are together:):) We have been keeping a low profile about him & I when he came home. We'd already spent two years in a world with people trying to dictate our future together without even knowing a thing about us. Yes, I was incredibly scared & so was he. Two years is a long time & we both had to take some time to make sure this is really what we wanted. Getting out of my independence was hard. Learning that I had someone who I could always depend on was hard. But there is some place that never felt foreign to me even from the first day he got home was being wrapped up in his arms. It felt like the safest place in the world & it's my favorite place to be.

We had a few challenges to overcome doubt being a main fight for me. Is he really the one for me? Can I see my self being with him for the rest of my life? Are we now both so different that this just isn't going to work? But with some trust, a little faith & complete honesty we were able to get back to where we had been when before he left. I was scared & I wasn't sure where I was at. Where was he? Did he still love me? Did I still love him? But that thought in my head was quickly shot down. Every moment of doubt was followed by a simplistic moment that made me realize how much I loved him. He has broken down walls that no one else ever had a chance (no pun intended) to get through. He's been home almost three months but it feels like he never even left. We are talking about marriage so I hope that is in the near future. August has been an idea but nothing is set in stone as the moment. But don't worry when I know you'll know:) Even the difference of us both from a month ago is tremendous. I have no worries, I have absolutely no doubts. I can say that honestly from the bottom of my heart can't see myself with anyone else. I'm completely captivated by the tall, blonde boy always standing besides me:) I can see what an amazing husband & future father he will be!!


So to the nay Sayers & backstabbers be sure to write your address down for a wedding invite but just remember when you said we couldn't make it. "That I said i wasn't waiting for him, or that it just wouldn't work out because I couldn't do it. We don't know what love is" So stick that in your juice box & suck it!! Especially those catty salon girls. Don't act like you know a thing about me & please stop prying information from my cousins when they come in to get their hair done please & thank you. Of course people are still going to talk. I'm sure they'll still be talking after we have grandchildren. I don't ever see an end to people being so bored with their life that they keep my name out of their mouths. Don't you dare talk down on or about anyone wanting to wait for their missionary. It's a hard thing to do & I have a new found respect for anyone who attempts it. It's hard & you understand only when you've been through it. Even to girls who I know haven't waited, good for trying I know how hard it is but no one who has or hasn't waited shouldn't be looked down on or talked about. Mind your own business.


But I'm starting not to care what people say or think about me & my relationship. If your talking about me behind my back then obviously your opinion means nothing to me. I have actual friends & a loving family to back me up. I have something that no one else has. Gregory Chance Bird the sweetest most amazing man i have ever met. I don't know how i got so lucky because i clearly don't deserve him. But i have him & I'm never letting go. It may have taken two years in high school, another two hard years on a mission, mistakes were made, blessings were found but all in all we made it through it all together & now we feel like if we can get through that we can make it through anything. This girl is ready to take on the world in hand with the love of her life.  Now I don't see how I ever even doubted it:) we appreciate all the love & support from our friends & family we love you all;) our future is looking bright I can't even wait for it:):):):)